Wednesday, December 23, 2020

Exultation Is The Going of an Inland Soul to Sea

The waters along the Oregon Coast are seldom warm enough for comfortable swimming - at least by my standards. After a few childhood experiments, I gave up all pretense of going to the beach to swim. Instead, I went to lie on a blanket on the sand in August and listen to the waves come in, or to walk briskly along the beach in February with my jacket zipped up, admiring the dramatic crash of the wind-tossed surf.

“I loved your ad,” Eos said as she walked at my side. “It’s true, everyone says they like ‘long walks on the beach’, but where are they? We’ve been walking on the beach every day this week, and we’re almost always the only people walking. That’s why I clicked on it and sent you a message.”

“Really? Not because I said I’d always liked older women, but at my age there aren’t many left?”

She laughed.

“That was probably a contributing factor.”

“You really are almost the only woman younger than I am that I’ve ever…had designs on.”

She laughed louder at that.

“You’re not anything like old enough to use a phrase like that.”

“Very few people are alive who’re old enough fo it to really fit. Anyway, my options are limited. I’m definitely too old to call it ‘dating’, and we haven’t done more than kiss so far, so I shouldn’t call you my lover.”

“That’s a fair point. Then again, I kind of like the idea of calling you my ‘boyfriend’.”

She showed me how much she liked it by stopping me with her arm and pulling me into a long and very enjoyable kiss.

“Oh, my, Grace…how would you feel about stopping in at my place and doing more than kiss? Or anyway, have some more kisses like that one?”

“That sounds really good. I could feel your body responding to that kiss, and that made me want to kiss you a bunch more.”

We resumed walking, about half a kilometer from my apartment building (we’d taken the bus to the south end of town for our walk). Even though I was looking forward to a hot “makeout session with my girlfriend” (and Eos had a point - there was something exciting in using language like that at my age), I didn’t feel any urge to rush. There was still wind and surf to hear, frothy waves to see, hardpacked sand to feel underfoot.

There was still Eos to walk beside.

 https://www.poemhunter.com/poem/exultation-is-the-going/

[Interesting. Just last night, I happened over a quote from Moby Dick about the thrill that passes through you when your ship passes out of land. It didn't come up in the lines I composed, but I was struck by the coincidence while reading the poem.]

The Magic Eight-Ball says, "Take the plunge."

Saturday, December 19, 2020

Be With People Who've Submerged

On the screen I saw naked bodies swimming down a street. The masks that covered their mouths, noses and eyes were the latest kind, invisible to the naked eye. I only knew they were there when they turned the right way, so that the optical difference between the air inside the mask and the water outside was detectable. They could have been in San Diego, Newport, Norfolk or a dozen other coastal cities, until I saw the antique cars parked at the curb, and the lights shining inside the ground floors of the buildings they were swimming past. Barnacles clung to the windows, coral was growing on the cars, but the illusion of a place which somehow still lived in spite of the risen sea was excellent.

A handsome middle-aged woman pointed at lettering painted on a window, COME TO MIAMI, as she swam past. Another, who could have been a teenager except that she had the silver hair of one who allows it to whiten even while she keeps all other parts of herself youthful, pointed at an illuminated, animated sign which read, BE WITH PEOPLE WHO’VE SUBMERGED.

Miami was the first city in North America to lose its main drag to the rising sea, and the only one which flaunted it, placing waterproof lights in its ground-floor windows and parking derelict cars at the curb, as though it were a new version of lost Atlantis, instead of demolishing the buildings to make it easier to use the water. It was also the only city that had gutted selected buildings and pressurized them, allowing people to continue to inhabit the ground floors.

They’d invested billions in making “life among the Submerged” into a special lifestyle, found only in Miami. I wondered if anyone actually bought into it.

 

https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/57673/to-be-of-use


The Magic Eight-Ball says, "Act, while action is still possible."

Wednesday, December 16, 2020

On This Table

“So, on this table we see that given the air pressure and oxygen content we currently have inside the cylinder, we should be able to breathe comfortably.”

“What about temperature?”

“Seven degrees. A bit chilly, but nothing we can’t handle by reducing the opacity of the Sunshade.”

“What’s stopping us, then? I want to have a look at the place.”

“We’ve been requested to wait until the Sequence Head has arrived, so she can be the first to take a breath of air inside.”

“Tssh! Like in an old SF movie: I’ll bet she enters in a vac suit, cracks her helmet, takes a long breath and says, ‘Ah, good. There’s oxygen on this planet’.”

“Well, be fair: the Sequence has been paying everyone’s salary for the last fifteen years. The moment we’ve all been waiting for is the moment we’ve all been waiting for, including the Primary Committee.”

“Meh. Whatever.”

“Just stay inside until she gives the word.”

He tapped at the environmental controls. The air pressure dropped, enough to make my ears pop. A chill breeze came through the fans.

“Hey! Did you just crack the seal? When you were explicitly told not to?”

“Nothing of the sort - I just matched the air in here to the cylinder’s air.”

“Smart aleck.”

 

https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/49622/perhaps-the-world-ends-here


The Magic Eight-Ball says: "Why ask me? Look on the table."

Friday, December 11, 2020

On Eagles’ Wings

As we walked along the sidewalk, Dad paused and pointed upward. All I saw in the sky was the contrail of a jet.

“Look…it flies!”

“Haven’t you  seen them before?” my brother asked archly.

“Heck, I’ve even been in them - but isn’t it a wonderful thing? It’s good to appreciate it.”

That was very typical of Dad. He was always going off on something and demanding that we notice how wonderful it was. One time, he’d picked up a rock off the ground and said, “See how there are pale bits in this gray rock? They’re fragments of older rock that’s been recycled into new rock. And look at the pale bits.”

He pointed at the largest of the pale chunks. It had little flecks of something shiny in it.

“This planet is old,” he said emphatically. “The rocks cry out, ‘Ancient I am! Ancient of days!’”

He’d tossed that rock aside, but I had picked it up. It was a pretty cool rock, after all.

As his hand dropped from pointing out the airplane, I looked at the sky a bit longer, seeing the tree branches and the telephone wires. I remembered a walk we had taken when I was three or four. He’d pointed out different things and told me what lived there: trolls lived in street drains, tiny four-eyed people lived under potted cactus…cats rode bicycles on telephone wires. That last one had stuck in my mind, and I seldom looked at telephone wires without picturing cats on little bicycles racing along telephone wires.

Dad put a strong emphasis on seeing wonderful things in life - and on making them up. I didn’t think that was contradictory of him.

 https://youtu.be/VW0jDEM1Qxc

The Magic Eight-Ball says: "Don't just look -- LOOK."

Thursday, December 10, 2020

Dreaming Yourself Across Magical Landscapes

My phone went off, reminding me that it was bedtime. Somehow, getting to bed at a reasonable hour had been more of a luxury than ever since the plague had struck, but I was determined to make it happen. I’d been comfortable with my schedule, until a week before, when I’d had an online appointment with my doctor and said I was “accustomed to sleeping about five hours a night”. She’d given me a tolerant smile and said that until recently I’d been “accustomed to being twenty pounds overweight”, and I’d managed to change my habits there, hadn’t I?

I’d been more than a little taken aback by that analogy, and had promised to mend my ways. She had given me a link to oneiros.org, which offered advice on how to sleep, and I’d been trying to follow it. I’d been especially tempted by the site’s promise that I could train my brain to dream more frequently and more vividly.

I pulled my phone from my pocket and for a moment allowed it to continue to play its pleasant tune, a song I remembered fondly from my teenage years. Then I silenced it, saved the chapter I was working on and shut down the computer. My doctor had been right about that one, too: I was writing better now that I was sleeping better. I thought this book would be an even bigger seller than my last one.

I went into the kitchen, microwaved a cup of water, opened my box of Sleepy Tea, admiring its image of an anthropomorphic platypus in pajamas sitting before a table with a steaming cup of tea, its bed in the background. I steeped a bag, enjoying the smell of the tea, and sat to relish it while I held a slim book of haiku.

Finishing the tea, which I took without honey so I wouldn’t need to brush my teeth again, I put the cup in the sink and went to my bed, shucking off my pants and sliding between its sheets. I plugged in my phone and opened oneiros.com on it. I selected “Sleeping Porch on a Warm, Rainy Summer Night”, and heard the distinctive sounds of rain falling on shrubbery and a shingled porch roof.

I turned out the light and drifted off to the sound of the rain, with occasional thunderclaps rolling in softly from a distance.

I woke to the screech of my alarm clock across the room, reeled to it and silenced it. I picked up my dream journal and made this entry, noting that I had once again dreamed of going to bed in a setting much more conducive to sleep than my real one. This one had really been remarkable, with its exotic advanced technology. I wished I had a phone like the one I’d dreamed about, a little flat slab like a piece of black glass with an Internet connection. I supposed there would be phones like that one day: when I had one, I’d probably give up my landline phone entirely. I looked over at my desk, where a sheet was sitting half-finished in its roller. I promised to work on it tonight after work.

As I dressed, I decided I would also stop at the library after work to use one of their Internet computers. I’d find out if there really were such a site as “oneiros.com”, and if so whether it bore any resemblance to the one in my dream.

I pulled my notebook from my pocket and opened it to my shopping list. I wrote “Sleepy Tea?” Maybe it was a real product that I’d seen on the shelf. If not, I’d buy another box of Walden’s Chamomile.

 

https://spad1.wordpress.com/2010/03/31/when-my-car-broke-down/ 

The Magic Eight-Ball says, "If you can dream, and not make dreams your master...."

Monday, December 07, 2020

Man of Steel (2020 Revision)

 STREET SCENE: JOE and JERRY walk down an otherwise-empty urban sidewalk, the camera preceding them down the sidewalk, slightly higher than eye level, so that we look slightly down on them.


JOE I’M NOT SAYING THINGS AREN’T BETTER THAN THEY USED TO BE. I’M JUST SAYING THAT THE WORLD IS LESS MYSTERIOUS, LESS SURPRISING. THERE’S NO MORE MAGIC IN THE WORLD, NO MORE MIRACLES. NOTHING TO MAKE YOU STOP AND SAY --

JERRY has stopped. He puts out his left hand to stop JOE from moving forward, though JOE doesn’t notice at first.

JERRY LOOK . . . .

JERRY’s right hand slowly rises, index finger pointing towards something higher than our POV.

JERRY (In an awed half-whisper) UP IN THE SKY . . . .

Ted read over the scene again, grinning. It was good. It was very good, the perfect opening scene for Superman: City of Tomorrow. It established the theme of a world whose wonders could easily be missed, ignored or taken for granted. Superman would serve as a metaphor for the marvels all around, the everyday miracles of life, science and human creativity. At the end of the film, Joe would spot a rare bird and point it out to Jerry, who would express surprise at Joe’s noticing it. Joe would grin and say, “I spend more time looking up these days.”

Okay, so he had a beginning and an ending. Now he just had to fill in a hundred or so pages. That, and find a way to get some studio person to take a look at it, and he still had small idea of how that was done. It was all so complicated, and did sixty-year-old men ever actually break into scriptwriting? Not in big-budget franchise pictures, he knew that much. He probably shouldn’t even be working on his Superman movie – better to concentrate on learning how to write basic scripts for low-budget pictures, the kind he might possibly get a shot at – not that he knew much about how even those kinds of films got made.

But the Superman project was what he wanted to work on. It was what fired him up. He liked Superman.

He looked down at his T-shirt, at the red “S” centered on his chest like a target. So he was a grown man who liked Superman. Big deal. Some people drank.

He saved the file, “SCOT1”, and massaged his aching wrists while the computer shut down.

It will get easier, he told himself. As with all things, it came with practice. Facility, speed and confidence would all increase, the more of it he did.

He got up, flexing his fingers the way the physical therapist had shown him. The pain in his hands reminded him that sometimes doing a lot of something for a long time could also use up your capacity to do it. He’d had a good run as a massage therapist, almost twenty years, but he'd reached the point where he couldn't go on doing it. Joints and tendons wore out, that was all there was to it. And as much as he had enjoyed the work, there were simply too many LMTs in town for him to make a grown-up living.

He'd enrolled in nursing school, and enjoyed it immensely, but he had flunked out. He'd gone back the next year to take the second term over again, in spite of the expense, and failed a second time. When he was invited to attend the graduation of his former classmates, they'd all been glad to see him, and he'd been glad to see them, but he'd felt as though, having just recovered from a hysterectomy, he'd been invited to a baby shower.

He'd continued to work as a nurse's aide. It was simple work, poorly paid, but at least he was still in the healing profession.

It was a job that required strength. A lot of it. He recalled one client whom he'd gone to for two hours a day, six days a week, to get him get out of bed and dressed. It had taken a tremendous amount of strength and self-control to maintain a professional demeanor through all of the man's griping, nitpicking, rude questions and insults. One morning, the old man had for some reason pressed him for details about the kind of services he performed.

“Really, sir, I can’t say much about other clients. It’s a question of professional ethics.”

“Huh. I wouldn’t call someone who works for minimum wage a professional.”

A) "What the hell business of yours is it how much I make, you nosy bastard?"
B) "I’ll have you know I get the highest rate the agency pays."
C) "Go to Hell, why don't you?"
D) “Well, sir, to my way of thinking, even a convict on a work gang can act with professionalism. That depends on your own personal dignity.”

Choosing "D" to say out loud had taken plenty of strength. More than Ted had thought he possessed. So there you were.

Ted sighed and shook himself. He had tried to learn to leave garbage like that behind at the end of a shift, and here it was years later, years since the failing of his back had made it impossible for him to continue working as a CNA, so he'd been reduced to living on Social Security Disability Insurance. What was the point of letting that dickhead keep on riding his shoulders? Time to make supper, anyway.

He cleared a space on the dining table, one of the few pieces of furniture which had followed him and his wife from their house to the tiny apartment they had taken together. He remembered a time when he'd seen his son Jake doing homework with a girl he vaguely recognized.

“I’ll need some room to work. Could you spread out a little less?”

“Let’s just go now,” the girl had said, and they'd started packing up their papers.

“We’re gonna finish up at Carol’s place,” Jake explained. “I’ll probably stay for supper, too.”

Ted had nodded. If he were going to be alone for the evening, he’d probably just cook up a ramen. His wife had been at yet another board meeting for the group she was keeping afloat mainly by her own efforts. He was used to eating alone.

As the kids left, Jake stared at the “S” on Ted’s chest.

“What do you wear that thing for? You’re sure not Superman.”

Ted smiled.

“You’re wrong, Jake. I am Superman.”

Jake had looked at his father without saying anything, then turned and left with his friend.

Now, years later, with Jake a grown man with a wife and family of his own, and with his wife dead nearly a year, Ted remembered that night.

Before heading into the kitchenette to cook up yet another ramen, Ted looked at the mirror hung on the wall on the other side of the table. An old man, he supposed, but not an ugly one. His wife had found him attractive, as had other women. There was a woman a couple of time zones away, a former and possibly future girlfriend who might bring love back into his life eventually.

The man in the Superman shirt was nothing special to look at, it was true. But Ted smiled at him anyway, and when he did he saw in those soft brown eyes a glint of something that could never be broken.

Jake didn’t know. None of them knew. But that was all right. In fact, it was exactly as it should be. It was only appropriate that no-one should suspect that beneath that mild-mannered exterior was a man of steel.

[I wrote this story some years ago. I've revised it a couple of times to better reflect my own life, and I felt like redoing it once again. I feel the need of steel in my spine more than ever today.]


The Magic Eight-Ball says, "Appearances can be deceiving."

That Doesn’t Mean It’s Always Pleasant

Jack looked up at the tree. Kate had been right, this was clearly Grandmother Tree. As they stepped under its canopy, Kate dropped her pack. Jack did the same. He pressed his back against it, spreading his arms wide to place his arms against the trunk, with one hand to take Kate’s.

It felt right to embrace Grandmother Tree this way, looking out over the mountainside, but not sufficient, so after a moment he took off his parka and pressed The Sweater to the rugged bark. He thought of stripping further, to embrace the tree in just his broadcloth shirt or even his bare skin, but the air was chilly, and he might not be able to hold to the tree for long. Anyway, this felt like sufficient contact.

Jack felt Kate take his hand, and looked over to see that she had dome the same, removing her coat but leaving her sweater on. He wondered if she had a good enough view, but then gave his full attention to the sight before him, of the tree-covered mountain and the next mountain, its top shrouded in a cloud.

He put his head back, his neck and scalp in contact with the cold, wet bark, and his eyes closed without his noticing. His attention was given over entirely to his contact with Grandmother Tree, feeling as though his body were becoming one with it, feeling the stress put on the tree’s towering bulk by the wind, feeling the sap moving slowly, so slowly, inside the trunk. It felt as though only Kate’s hand in his kept him from losing his humanity completely, and he kept a firm hold on it.

His eyes opened, and he imagined a pair of eyes opening in the tree’s bark. He wondered if he and Kate were providing the tree with the rare gift of sight, allowing it to appreciate its surroundings with a new sense for a moment.

Snow was beginning to fall. It seemed to be falling in a very limited area. Were they on the leading edge of an advancing snowcloud? But it really did feel as thouh the snow were falling just for them. After only a couple of minutes, the snowfall began to drop off.

“Jack.” Kate’s voice seemed very loud in that quiet place. “Jack, the snow is moving. I think it’s leading us.”

Jack reluctantly pulled his body away from Grandmother Tree, surprised that it was so easy to disengage. He turned his body to look where she was pointing. Sure enough, there was a tiny patch of falling snow in the air, moving away from them, leaving a trail of snow-breadcrumbs.

He pulled his parka back on, shouldered his pack while Kate did the same, not taking his eyes off the snowfall. They began to walk in the direction the trail of snowflakes led them.

“This is quite a leading.”

“Yes. We must be close.”

 

http://growingupinthecloud.weebly.com/uploads/1/2/8/8/12888976/eagleman_david_-_sum_selections.pdf#:~:text=Sum%20In%20the%20afterlife%20you%20relive%20all%20your,sleep%20for%20thirty%20years%20without%20opening%20your%20eyes. 


This morning's Creating Together session was different: the meditation exercise, of leaning against Grandmother Tree on the mountainside, the arrival of a small patch of snowfall, all seemed perfect for The Lodge, a story which Kathe left unfinished, and which I intend to complete. Writing from Kathe's notes feels good. I feel as though it helps me stay connected to her, especially since the lead characters are named Jack and Kate, and she definitely intended for them to be stand-ins for John and Kathe.

I think this bit of writing is going to go directly into The Lodge, with little or no change, as part of their quest for the remote sculptures which serve as anchors for life on Earth.


The Magic Eight-Ball says, "Our ghosts are always with us. That doesn't mean their presence will always be pleasant."

Wednesday, December 02, 2020

If I Were Doing My Laundry

I wake up at six to take my pills, awakened by an alarm clock across the room to ensure I get up. I reset the alarm for later in the morning and then, evidently, go back to bed without actually taking my pills. So it is that I awaken shortly before nine, still aching from too many hours without codeine, take my pills with irritation, and get the link open too late, having to turn off the sound in the middle of the meditative exercise, though not after the prompt, "If I were doing laundry".

If I were doing my laundry and paying my bills in this hour, I would try to do them with clarity and presence of mind, honoring the Buddha’s admonishment: “Before enlightenment, do laundry and pay the bills. After enlightenment, do laundry and pay the bills.”

Over the centuries, the things we do remain consistent, in spite of changes to how we do them. We get heat by paying the electric bill or the gas bill or by doing maintenance on the solar panels, instead of by chopping firewood, but we must still do the job of providing ourselves with heat. We clean our clothing by loading a washing machine and a dryer - and by paying the electric bill and the water bill, or by doing maintenance on the well’s pump - rather than by building a fire and carrying buckets of water and then laboriously washing the clothing by hand, but the laundry must still be done.

And we must still handle our needs in an honest and rightful way. We must earn the money to pay our bills through right livelihood. We must treat the people who provide the things we need - and the planet that provides them - with due respect. We cannot dismiss those who serve us by saying, “It is their duty to serve, to be the hewers of our wood and the drawers of our water”, as the Israelites once declared it to be the work of the children of Ham, as Brahmins still say “It is work fit for Untouchables”, as so many Americans still say, “It is n****r work”. We must honor those who do the work - especially if we do it ourselves.

 After, as the host is reading the poem, I learn that the poem is "Homework", by Allen Ginsburg, and quickly find a link so I can read along: 

https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/49311/homework-56d22b44cb0bd

I marvel at the poem, and note that it was indeed by a noted Buddhist.

I recall my notion of many years before, of becoming a Buddhist televangelist, making my Buddhist practice aggressively American, without any of the trappings of "they mysterious East" that so many American Buddhists affect.

I remind myself that I do try to practice the Eightfold Path, just as I try to adhere to three of the four Pillars of Islam (excusing myself from making a pilgrimage to Mecca), and that I am obliged to practice Christianity since that day I contemplated the name, "Religious Society of the Friends of Christ", and drew a conclusion, and because I thought it was a useful and significant conclusion, said it out loud:

"If the name of Jesus Christ means anything at all, I hope I may be counted as a Friend of Christ".

I remember how it felt to say those words, how I was surprised by how hard it was to force those words out, and how much more surprised I was that as soon as I had said them, I burst into tears. Then I remember how inconvenient that was, since I was driving at the time.

The Magic Eight-Ball says, "Be here now."


Wednesday, November 25, 2020

Hope Is Borne On Wings

“Oh, look, the dove of peace - that must be a good sign!”

I looked where Hayes was pointing. Sure enough, among the pigeons searching for food on the macadam, one had completely white feathers, which looked dazzling in the morning light.

“Proof, if more were needed,” I said, “that there’s no difference between a pigeon and a dove except what it’s called by humans.”

“What do you mean? It’s right there!”

I hesitated before I spoke again. This was a rare moment of calm in the endless round of boot camp. The rising Sun was lighting up the grounds, making even the bare macadam in front of the barracks look beautiful, especially with those birds on it. That’s why I was out there, in spite of the cold, even though I didn’t smoke. I’d started coming out early since a few days before, when I’d heard the opening notes of  Dreamweaver coming over someone’s radio, amid the noise of 83 men going about their evening routines. I’d wished it were quiet, so I could listen to that beautiful song, regretting that of course nobody else would care. Until someone called out, “Pipe down, guys - it’s Dreamweaver!” The whole barracks-room fell silent, and we all gathered around the radio until the song was finished.

It had been a reminder that there was such a thing as beauty in the world, even this strange new world of gray paint everywhere and runny noses every morning. I’d begun looking for that beauty since then. It was also a reminder that these guys weren’t so different from me, and I needed to work on my condescending attitude.

I didn’t want to start an argument that would spoil the moment. But my inner smart aleck, never far from the surface, spurred me to pursue the point.

“Yeah, it’s right there among the other pigeons. The only difference in that one bird is that its feathers are all white, instead of being gray here and green there and white in a few places. Look at the shape of it.”

“Okay, but still, that one’s white. That’s what’s different about it.”

Gates said, “Back in Texas, there’s a lot of white doves. They’re not hard to catch, and pretty good eating.”

I was interested. I’d never heard of dove hunting before.

“Oh, man,” Ontraverros said, making a mock-disgusted face. “In New York, we don’t eat the pigeons.”

“No, no,” I said, “he eats doves.”

That brought scattered laughter to the group.

“I call my sister paloma,” Ontraverros added. “I wouldn’t ever call her ‘pigeon’.”

“Hey,” Hayes said, “I call my girlfriend ‘pigeon’. Or sometimes ‘pigeon-pie’.”

“Ewww”, I said. “You eat pigeons, too?”

“No, dude, I just eat my girlfriend.”

“Aw, man, that’s just nasty,” Gates said.

“Nuh-uh -- that’s why she’s still my girlfriend!”

The white bird started picking at a loogie on the macadam.

“Okay”, Gates said, “I ain’t eatin’ that dove.”

A pigeon with completely black feathers, as well as black feet and beak, settled among us.

“Look at that one,” Hayes said. “That’s called melanism. It’s the opposite of being an albino.”

Rogers said, “Nah, man, that’s a black pigeon.”

“No, no,” Ontraverros said, “that’s a black dove, man!”

This time the laughter was general.

 

http://www.yourdailypoem.com/listpoem.jsp?poem_id=2457


The Magic Eight-Ball says, "The map is not the territory."

Tuesday, November 24, 2020

Elseworlds

https://youtu.be/bRRjlIycb9o

 I like making up my own Elseworlds stories - I'm sure that's not a rarity.

I think it's too bad that Wonder Woman's German Expressionist Elseworld was based on  The Blue Angel rather than Alraune.

A girl named "Diana" is raised on an island in the Baltic Sea by a group of scientists who think of her as a science experiment rather than a person. She is physically and mentally extraordinary, but seemingly heartless - until, of course, her existence is discovered by Luftwaffe pilot Stefan Traeger, who awakens her capacity for love.

One of my favorite "Imaginary Elseworlds", though (one I'd REALLY enjoy actually seeing) is, "Crash Kent on the Planet Krypton" Yes, a retelling of Flash Gordon in which reporter Lois Lane and football player Clark "Crash" Kent (an ordinary Earthman in this universe) wind up accidentally flying in Doctor Luthor's rocketship (blue with red fins, of course) to the rogue planet Krypton which is on a collision course with Earth. There, they find it inhabited by a myriad of strange races, from the winged Hawkmen of the flying city to the swift-footed Flashmen of the central desert and the Aquamen of the Sea of Monsters.

It is a world ruled by the bald tyrant Dox and his many sons (although his Number Five son seems to be dubious of Dox's reign).

Crash, naturally, disapproves of Krypton's system of government, and joins the underground, but it seems there is little hope to overturn the tyrant...until Crash happens upon a legendary artifact, a green ring which glows like a tiny lantern....

Admit it, that would be a way cool Elseworld.

The Magic Eight-Ball says, "Maybe"....

Monday, November 23, 2020

We Never Belonged To You

Dear Mom and Dad:

Thank you for all the care and love you put into rearing us. We are all pretty well-adjusted and well-launched into life, and we have you to thank for a lot of that.

You need to know, though, that we are launched into life. We’re not your babies anymore. We need to decide things for ourselves now.

Last week at Thanksgiving, you both attacked Bettina for bringing Leslie to dinner, and belittled their relationship. We were all shocked at your behavior.

Leslie is the person Bettina is closest to, at least for now he is. The fact that they are not romantically involved is beside the point. Bettina isn’t looking for a romantic relationship, and like Leslie, she might very well be aromantic. Or, she might just be focussing on her career right now, and will be open to romance later on in life. That’s irrelevant. What matters is, it’s Bettina’s life, and you need to respect that.

 

https://genius.com/Margaret-atwood-the-moment-annotated

The Magic Eight-Ball says, "Nope."

Wednesday, November 18, 2020

It Happened so Quickly

We’d gotten up early to drive to Portland. This was the culmination of years of effort, struggle, sacrifice, tedium, false starts, disappointments, embarrassment, humiliation.

Anyone who thinks adoption is easier than pregnancy and childbirth should come try it for themselves.

But now, we had finally come here, to this spot at PDX, the Portland International Airport. Standing together, the three of us, John and Kathe and Waldy, waiting for them to come.

We saw a pair of dark-skinned girls, but as they got closer we saw that they were not Hamitic, and older than the girls we expected, and there was no boy with them. We saw another girl, and looked for her sister and brother, and didn’t see them, and went back to waiting.

Finally, we saw what we were looking for: two girls and a little boy, all dressed in white linen Ethiopian formal wear, and wearing small backpacks. And they saw us as well. First one girl, then the other, then they called their brother’s attention to us.

They didn’t run. They’d surely been cautioned not to run, and they were good kids. But they picked up their pace a little bit, and it felt as though I was connected to them by an elastic bond that drew them toward us.

Then they were in our arms, my wife hugging one girl while I hugged the other, then the little boy, who had already hugged Waldy.

Touching them seemed to make them real. These were our kids. We were their parents.

It happened so quickly.


The Magic Eight-Ball says: "Hurry up and wait".

Thursday, October 29, 2020

The Afternoon Froze


 I sat in the small space in front of the apartment, looking out at the parking lot, savoring the August heat. For some reason, I relished the warmth, and welcomed it into my body, as though I had dropped into this moment from some colder part of the year. I looked down at the book in my hands, then up again at the world around me.

A person crossed the parking lot to get into her car. I recognized her as someone who was very conscientious about wearing her droplet mask, but she wasn’t wearing one. Neither was I, I noticed, like someone in a dream noticing he is naked in public. Then I stopped worrying: clearly, this must be a time before the pandemic, or after. A time when people had no need to mask. This thought was reinforced by the sight of two jet contrails in an otherwise-clear sky, and a jet overhead, laying down another one.

I lowered my head, relishing the silence. It was so very quiet, without the constant, oceanlike sound of traffic. Was I wrong? Was this indeed a time of quarantine and isolation? I looked up to try to confirm that my neighbor was unmasked, if she was still in the parking lot.

She was still in the parking lot. In the parking lot, she was still, sitting in her car, hands on the wheel. Ready to back out of her space, but not doing so. Just sitting, still.

I noticed that the jet overhead seemed to be in the same position as it had been. I moved my head so a telephone wire lay between me and the plane, and as I watched for several heartbeats, it didn’t continue past the wire. The plane was still, flying. Clearly, the afternoon froze around me.

Well, if this is the End of Days, I wouldn’t mind it happening here and now. If, on the other hand, it was simply a temporary phenomenon, I welcomed it; I had often wished I could step outside of time and settle my mind before proceeding onward. I remained in place, afraid of disturbing the frozen time. I sat motionless, like the third person at the end of a Police Squad! Episode while the two principals stood motionless in a seeming freeze-frame, trying to fit in.

I looked down at my book again, and read it. I read for several pages, until I became bored, or maybe it was that the silence was getting to me. I looked up, and saw my neighbor still in her seat, the plane still overhead, everything still.

 

This is the poem which contained the phrase, “The Afternoon Froze”: Minor Miracle by Marilyn Nelson. I recommend it highly: https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/47528/minor-miracle


The Magic Eight-Ball says: "Wow."

Monday, October 12, 2020

The Amassing of Things

Things accumulate around you in the normal course of life. For many people, their accumulation of things is a direct function of how much space is available to hold them. They may become a burden, requiring that you purge your accumulation, and it can be painful to do this, deciding what to keep and what to discard.

The amassing of things, on the other hand, is a conscious process. You intentionally seek out new things to add to your surroundings because each thing is especially pleasing. It displays your wealth, or your good taste, or you are assembling an authentic Victorian parlor in your home, or you simply take pleasure in collecting a lot of something (comic books, stamps, postcards).

We are a tool-using species. We require tools like clothes and pencils and some form of housing in order to survive, especially if we live outside the tropical environment in which we evolved. The conscious amassing of things can be thought of as making a virtue of necessity, but it can become a vice as well.

My wife and I spent many years in a large old house, and it gradually became full of things, many more things than we had an actual use for. We had books, tools, all manner of oddments. One reason for this was that we often had occasion to give people things they needed, and we had an impulse to not let useful things go to waste, going so far as to engage in “dumpster diving” (I preferred to call it “delving”, since we didn’t normally climb inside). When we moved form that house to a small apartment, by far the biggest difficulty we faced was how to “downsize”. It gave us great pleasure to be able to provide a thing that someone needed - a student with an art project, or a neighbor setting up a household.

On one occasion, a homeless man stayed with us for a few days, sleeping on our porch and having a couple of meals with us. When he was ready to move on, he mentioned that he would need to scrounge a few things, like a waterproof covering and a new pillow (I forget what-all, but it was several things), and we were pleased to be able to obtain every one of the things he felt in need of. It was as though he would be taking our hospitality with him.

We were less pleased that after accepting these things, he scolded us for being so “materialistic”, having so many things we could give them away with such a free hand. After he left, we had a decorous laugh over his remarks, thinking that he had failed to understand why we had those things, and that people unhealthily concerned with amassing things would have clung  to the things we had given him, because having twenty-seven pillows was so much more comfortable than having a mere twenty-six.

dayshttps://tellingthetruth1993.com/2020/04/30/of-the-empire-mary-oliver/

The Magic Eight-Ball says, "It is better to give than to receive - or anyway, it is more comfortable."

Thursday, October 08, 2020

Thanking Our Dead Teachers

I heard the prompt, “Thanking Our Dead Teachers”, and turned it over in my mind. It could refer to people whose stories I had heard of people who lived long ago, or people of long ago whose books I had read. It could also refer to influential people in my life who were dead - my maternal grandmother in particular came to mind. Yet another possibility was that it described people who have moved out of my life, who might not literally be dead but with whom I have lost touch.

I found my mind carried back repeatedly though to people who had been formally designated my teachers, at school, and who were literally dead. In particular, to a time when I was training to be a nursing assistant, working under supervision at a nursing home. Sent to spend several days in the “locked wing”, where residents suffering from dementia lived, seeing the doors marked with printed signs identifying the residents. Here was JOSEPH BLOEW, his name surrounded with waves and anchors and an American flag, evidently a Naval veteran. Here was JANE REAU, her name surrounded with barns and horses and fence rails. Then I came to a name I recognized, embedded among apples and slates and wooden chairs. With some trepidation, I looked into the room, and found it vacant, its plastic-covered mattress stripped. Evidently, I had “just missed” my First Grade teacher, whose kindness and patience I still remembered.

As fondly as I remembered her, I thought it was just as well not to have had a “reunion” with her, especially not at the very beginning of what turned out to be many years of serving men and women who had spent long lives of self-reliance and had come to such a vulnerable state.

After the writing period of my group ended, and the host read the text which had contained the phrase “thanking our dead teachers”, I was amused to find that it primarily concerned a literal dead teacher, who had intrigued the author by the ritual of licking her coffee cup while sitting in class, making eye contact, an action which caused him to wonder if she were flirting with him. I was immediately reminded of my own years teaching massage, to groups which usually were mostly women, in which I had to take great care to avoid saying or doing anything which might appear flirtatious, which would have impaired my ability to teach.

From there, my mind turned to the fact that I am evidently the only man in this writing group, and my occasional thought that my presence might put a damper on it. Did the women restrain themselves to avoid giving the impression of flirting with me, or of “putting themselves out there” to invite my attentions? Did they presume they would need to defer to me in order not to irritate me? Or feel a desire to freeze me out and encourage me to leave? I did think these things occasionally, even though I’d received only welcome and encouragement.

I remembered a woman saying that a man who finds himself alone in a group of only women was delighted, a woman alone in a group of men was terrified. While sympathizing with anyone who finds herself the “only woman”, I thought to myself that in fact, any man who is even slightly aware of women as people will be at least somewhat concerned about imposing, at least until he is affirmatively made welcome. From there, my thoughts turned to the women, living and dead, who had helped me to understand how to be comfortable in the company of women, and how to make women comfortable in my company, and offered them my thanks. 

https://arts.cgu.edu/tufts-poetry-awards/graduation-2020-what-a-year/

The Magic Eight-Ball says: "It is a blessing to be a teacher, or a student."

Wednesday, October 07, 2020

Honeysuckle Under The Moon

“If I hear the word ‘honeysuckle’, for instance,” Miguel said, “or if I see honeysuckle growing somewhere, or a picture of it, my mind will always go back to one particular Summer night in Georgia when I was twenty-two, when I intentionally pursued a woman with the intent of having a one-night stand. I’d had a couple before that, but this was the first time I decided to try to get a woman to spend a night with me for no other reason than that I wanted that one night.”

He lay down four cards: a Four of Diamonds, a Four of Clubs, a Nine of Diamonds and a Nine of Clubs.

“Mixed doubles,” he said, and put a Trey of Cups on the discard pile.

“Did you get her?”, I asked, silently cursing that mixed doubles  were on the table, which meant I couldn’t lay down the two Treys of Clubs and two Aces of Clubs that were among the thirteen cards in my hand. If there were mixed doubles on the table, you couldn’t play same doubles.

He smiled.

“When I was twenty-two, I could probably have had a night with any woman I took a fancy to. Well, compared with how I am now, anyway.”

“Don’t fish for compliments,” Laea said. She was twenty-two herself, the youngest person at the table, who could probably have had Miguel or I or Bezunesh, the other woman playing with us, if she wanted to.

Laea lay down a King of Diamonds and a King of Clubs.

“On yours, Miguel. I know what you mean. If I smell burning newspaper-it smells different from wood, or burning books-I always think of a time I had no firewood and tried to warm a room with just the huge pile of yellowed newspapers that were nearby.”

She put a card on the discard pile, neatly lined up with Miguel’s discard, and the Trey of Wheels which I’d laid down when I’d dealth the hand. The card was face-down, a “dat card” instead of a “discard”.

Bezunesh put down the first run of the hand, a Queen, King and Ace of Hearts, and discarded a card which had begun life as a Joker holding a banner on a staff, but which had lost its Os, Ks, Es and Rs, and the banner from its staff, all carefully scraped away, and gained in their place two Spade pips under its Js, and a shovel blade to the end of the staff, turning it into a Jack of Spades.

“That line of belly hair that runs down from the navel,” she said. “The first time I saw a man wearing shorts that exposed his navel, and who had that hair, I couldn’t take my eyes off the sight. It turned me on incredibly. Ever since then, I have watched for that whenever I see a man in shorts, or swimming trunks. It always sets me off. Which is funny, because it was absolutely the only time my uncle ever turned me on. But hey, I was thirteen, and everything turned me on.”

The play had come to me. Could I lay anything down at all? I didn’t see anything - oh, there it was.

I picked up the entire discard pile, all the way down to that Trey at the bottom. It was hard to hold all sixteen cards and still have their faces showing, but I immediately lay down the four Deuces. I was about to discard when I saw that Bezunesh’s dat card had been a Ace of Diamonds. I quickly lay down an Ace of Diamonds, saying, “On yours, Miguel. Fireflies.”

I smiled fondly at the thought.

“I’d never seen fireflies until a night when I was walking along U.S. Route 2, a two-lane highway that runs parallel to the Canadian border from Michigan to Washington. I was in a stretch of countryside, walking along on a night so dark I had to bring one foot down on pavement and the other on gravel to keep from either wandering into the middle of the road or into the ditch. I saw a moving light ahead, and realized it was a firefly, blinking away in midair. A little further on, I saw a couple more. Such beautiful little green lights. Then I came around a bend in the road and I saw a whole field full of them, blinking on and off as they perched on blades of grass, like an immense diagram of synapses opening and closing in a brain. I stood there watching, mesmerized, for a long time before I moved on. A couple of years later, I moved here, where you can see fireflies most Summer nights, but they always remind me of that night.”

I discarded a Jack of Hearts.

“Gin!” Miguel said, a fraction of a second before Bezunesh did. I sighed as I saw Miguel lay the Jack down in front of himself.

http://whatisfoundhere.blogspot.com/2018/05/letter-to-local-police-by-june-jordan.html

The Magic Eight-Ball says, "Be cautious in what you discard."